Sorting Through the Clutter
If you somehow were able to unearth my diary amidst the clutter of my room, then you would probably find something like this...
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Sorting Through the Clutter If you somehow were able to unearth my diary amidst the clutter of my room, then you would probably find something like this... |
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Wednesday, July 08, 2009 Ridiculous. How often how I update my blog. It's ridiculous. I sometimes forget I even have a blog. Mid-summer now - lots of things have happened in the past couple of months. I'll update later in another post. Too lazy right now. I realize I am living life one day at a time. Is that bad? Should I plan a little bit? Apparently, I'm not the planning type though. I need to hire a planner..wonder if life planners exist? :P Yesterday, J told me that the reason why there are so few females in high-paying executive positions is because they cannot explain their thoughts properly and rely too often on their feelings. I was so pissed! What the hell kinda caveman thought is that? Grrrr... Must confront and demand an explanation. How insulting... posted by Jenn | 6:13 PM | Saturday, February 21, 2009 It's funny how life changes when you move. Even if it's not really that far from home. I live a city over from where I grew up but gradually you start spending more and more time with friends that you've made after you move. Most of my childhood friends are in Oakville and Mississauga and I'm sad that I don't get to see them as often anymore. I just got a call from e. It was soooo nice to hear from her and to just gab on the phone a little bit. In high school, my phone was almost permanently glued to the phone. But nowadays phone calls last less then 10 minutes or so. I guess that comes with age. Because back in high school, I was stuck in the middle of suburbia without a driver's license. Today, if we're going to spend more than 10 minutes on the phone, we might as well meet up for a coffee :) Face time. Nothing beats it. This blog entry is so random. Randomness. Nothing beats it. posted by Jenn | 2:52 PM | Thursday, February 12, 2009 I love the big bus-tour ski/snowboard trips. Although I'm beginning to feel like I'm slowly getting to old for it :P I don't know how many more years of "10-hour bus rides to the mountain" I have left in me. It was super fun though. Went to Jay Peak, Vermont for a long weekend (took the Friday off work) and had a blast. Jay Peak it known for it powdery snow conditions and its glades. I don't do glades. See, I'm a snowboarder. BUT, this trip totally changed that. I fell in love with swooshing in and around trees. The powder was AWESOMELY deep and fluffy. So it felt like you were surfing over cotton balls (or cute little white bunnies). And when you're stuck deep in the glades, there's no sound. It's so silent and peaceful...feels like you're lost in the wilderness. Which actually DID happen on one of the runs. I almost fell through the snowy surface into the river running silently underneath it :O It was pretty scary...because I got separated from my friend. So for 20 minutes, I was in my own episode of Survivorman. (or Survivorwoman) :) Made it out eventually, using my snowboard as a toboggan/makeshift bridge. Yay for snowboarding. I heart it. posted by Jenn | 9:42 PM | Monday, January 05, 2009 Yet another year has flown by. Why does it seem like time is on fast forward once we graduate from school? So what have I done with my time in 2008? Time for a recap: - started 2008 without any boys by my side. (as opposed to the disaster exactly a year ago) I haven't rung in a new year without a boyfriend since almost a decade ago. Needed to learn to be alone. - ran the social committee at work - learned how to deal with a fickle heart - took up a Culinary Arts class! I learned how to cut a whole chicken into 8 usable parts, how to make reduction sauces, how to make the flakiest, melt-in-your-mouth quiche ever - took up Salsa lessons. I kinda know the basics but taking lessons really made a difference - snowboarded on the west coast for the first time ever. It was the best snowboarding experience of my life. The powdery snow was incredible - went to NYC for the first time since the Ex and I went back in 2006. It was a little strange because I associated that city with the happy times I had with the Ex. It was strange seeing the city with other people. - saw my first Raptor's game - learned how to really let go of the past - fell in love - traveled to China and retraced the steps my dad took when he was in high school - stood in the same spot that my dad met my mom - learned about my roots, my heritage, my past - traveled to Vancouver and met the boyfriend's parents (They loved me! ^_^ ) - best friend got married! - got formally recognized at work for my recent work achievements! - reconnected with some of my engineering buddies from undergrad - relearned how to study - wrote my professional engineering exam - had our first big fight as a couple - celebrated Christmas with the boyfriend by my side. - rang in the new year in NYC! posted by Jenn | 8:53 AM | Monday, December 08, 2008 I have a legitimate reason for ignoring my blog. I signed up for Facebook. Yes, finally. I caved under an almost-daily bombardment of "you should join facebook/ i love facebook/ you'd love facebook too/ how will you keep in touch.." So it's been fun with the Facebooking. I get to see pictures of what people have been up to, and just to just keep in touch with people I don't see on a regular basis. Sorry blog for ignoring you. I don't feel inspired to write much right now. Up to the usual...meeting up with buddies, taking a few salsa lessons, spending time with the bf...oh and studying for my the Professional Engineering exam. I have seriously forgotten how to study. I haven't forgotten how to procrastinate though... :) posted by Jenn | 9:22 AM | Saturday, September 06, 2008 I think I used to blog pretty well. Kinda witty, kinda funny, kinda clever (Not to toot my own horn, mind you). Well, I was reading through some past entries and noticed that the blogging quality AND quantity had gone down. You know, one of the main reasons I stopped blogging as much was because I didn't want to write about my personal life so much anymore. I know the Ex reads my blog and I wasn't ready to share with him and the rest of the world about my past year's happenings. I have this weird thing about wanting to protect my privacy, but I'm somehow a bit of exhibitionist too and revel in airing out all my dirty laundry to the world. I had a really good talk with the Ex last night. I had not talked to, SMS'd, emailed him the entire summer. For us to go without any sort of contact for more than 3 months is a really big deal. Call it a forced break, but it was really good for us. We needed to grow apart, to let go abruptly, to disappear from each other's lives for a bit. You see, I've been in a really good relationship with J for quite awhile now but there was always something pulling me back from giving it all into the relationship. These months apart from the Ex let me see how good of a man J really is - it let me give him a real chance and it let me give myself a real chance to fall in love again. So the Ex is moving away indefinitely and yesterday was his going-away party. It was the first time I had seen him all summer. I thought it would be awkward seeing him. It wasn't. It was natural and normal immediately. And when he finally sat next to me to chat for abit and to apologize for his past behaviour, I started crying and left the table. We ended up talking for awhile upstairs on the patio. It was good closure. We cried, hugged, laughed, apologized, and cleared the air. I placed the wonderful memories we shared in a special place in my heart and closed the door firmly. I looked back only once as I walked away. posted by Jenn | 7:44 PM | Sunday, July 27, 2008  Hello from China! - hot...disgustingly, sweat-drippingly hot - so much good food: an entire meal consisting of 7 courses of seafood - so much weird food: silk worms (I don't think they're meant to be eaten) - crazy drivers: I've never been so afraid for my life (maybe perhaps when I was last in Joe's car) - shopping paradise: this HK$ to Cdn$ exchange rate is awesome - cute clothes everywhere - wanting to dress like a fob, but sticking out like a sore (Canadian-born) thumb - having giggly high-school girls laugh at my horrible Cantonese - getting my Chinese vocabulary back - seeing family I haven't seen in years - meeting family I've never met before - walking through the house where my dad grew up - sitting in the same high school classroom chair that my dad sat in - seeing the place where my mom and dad met - more good food. I think I've gained 5 lbs since arriving - did I mention the humidity and heat? One more week of culture and sensory overload :) posted by Jenn | 9:04 PM | Sunday, May 25, 2008 A beautiful song that's been on heavy rotation on my iPod for awhile now... He and I had something beautiful But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last I loved him so but I let him go ‘Cause I knew he'd never love me back Such pain as this Shouldn't have to be experienced I'm still reeling from the loss, Still a little bit delirious Near to you, I am healing But it's taking so long 'Cause though he's gone And you are wonderful It's hard to move on Yet, I'm better near to you. You and I have something different And I'm enjoying it cautiously I'm battle scarred, But I am working oh so hard To get back to who I used to be He's disappearing Fading steadily I'm so close to being yours Won't you stay with me Please --- A Fine Frenzy, "Near to You" posted by Jenn | 8:48 PM | Friday, May 09, 2008 Thanks for turning my birthday into a week-long celebration. I was thinking of doing an un-birthday this year and staying low-key. But I think I just might enjoy this version more. :) You guys are all wonderful. I'm lucky to have you all in my life. Thanks. posted by Jenn | 12:39 PM | Thursday, April 10, 2008 I love fresh herbs. I just finished a 10-week cooking course and I am so much more enamoured by this wondering work of cooking that so many of my friends have already ventured into. One of the most important lessons that I learned in the 10 weeks is that you should ALWAYS cook with fresh herbs. Trust me, coming from a person that thoughts basil came in the shape of little square flakes, those wise words were very much appreciated. I don't even need much salt/soy sauce/Maggi sauce when I cook now. I used to think the dried herbs and spices were used mainly for aesthetic purposes. What a fool I was. The smell of Marinara sauce infused with fresh basil, oregano, and thyme is intoxicating. Oh, I have fallen in love with fresh rosemary. When I chop up rosemary, all I want to do is sprinkle it on myself. It smells divine. Absolutely divine. 
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008 I heart travel. Yes, even if it's just within Canada and/or slightly over the US border. Well 10 hours slightly over the US border, in a car. But we have good music and good snacks (thanks to SC) so it was manageable. :) So Feb 7th saw me flying off to Whistler!! WHISTLER!!! OH. MY. GOODNESS. The powder. It was AWESOME. Like 'I'm-surfing-over-several-feet-of-powder-snow" awesome. That is until I catch some sort of edge and go launching head first into the several feet of snow. I never thought I was utter the words "This is too much powder". See the little dots in the distance..those are people skiing down through the endless amount of fluffiness.  Popping painkillers like mad, because I wanted to keep going. Yes, it was THAT much fun. I miss it. I wanna go back. I returned to Toronto for one day before heading off to the big apple. Haven't been there since 2005. But this time, we had more time to explore and experience the city that never sleeps. Saw Avenue Q, shopped on Canal street, had the best guacamole on earth, bumped into kmak in Times Square, coveted Dior bags, ate delicious food, partied it up in West Village.  February 2008 was one of my favourite months this year :) I got to go on exactly the kind of trips that 'big-city girls who love the open mountain air' like to go on. posted by Jenn | 1:12 AM | Wednesday, January 30, 2008 2007 has indeed passed too quickly. I don't think I'm the only one who feels that way. Like my lil' bro, I too think that the year passed by so quickly that I barely have had time to reflect on it. - Started the year quite painfully. Wanting to look forward but holding onto the past. - Assigned to and started a organization-wide initiative at work that eventually came to fruition in 2008 - very happy about that accomplishment - Made and cemented solid friendships at work. You know me - I'm all about building relationships. It's what makes me happy, no matter where I may find myself - My lil' bro decided to join the army - despite my misgivings, but with my full support - Backpacked through Eastern Europe - learned about the incredible strength of Hungarian Jews and developed a deep respect for the perseverance of these people - Learned how to play golf! - Did a lot of work travel: Vancouver crab one week, Halifax Lobster the next - Still learning to move forward - Perfected my skills in "juggling" - Prom 2007: discovered that I still fit into my high school prom dress :) - Discovered how much I miss my lil bro. Cherished the times when he was back to visit. - Had my first tele-conference breakfast because we couldn't break our Christmas tradition - Best friend got engaged! posted by Jenn | 11:33 PM | Sunday, December 30, 2007 Hello! I'm still here. But really busy with work right now. And other things. I can't believe 2007 is (almost) already over!! Where did this year go?! It's slightly scary how quickly time seems to sprint by now. Happy New Year's folks!! p.s. I'll write more in the new year's. p.p.s. New Year's resolution: Update blog more frequently? posted by Jenn | 4:59 PM | Saturday, November 03, 2007 Back in the day, people used to have their milk delivered to their front door. (In fact, I'm sure in some places, that still happens). In Europe, people loved spritzer (soda water) so much, they have it delivered to their house everyday.  The delivery man was kind enough to pose with the much-loved bottle of spritzer.  In Hungary, people loved spritzer so much, that they mixed it with their wine for a refreshing cool summer drink. They called it " Fröccs". I had quite a couple of those while I was over in Budapest. posted by Jenn | 5:33 PM | Tuesday, October 02, 2007  After a year and a half, I think I have finally pulled away enough to truly let go. I made him promise that we'll always be best friends. So that I'll know that I don't have to hold his hand to know that it'll always be there. It's weird knowing that we'll never end up together. I always felt that we would somehow. Don't ask me how or why. Because if I knew, I'd have an answer to a question that neither one of us was able to answer. posted by Jenn | 1:12 PM | |
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